-John 13:7
It's remarkable how little we actually know about the present. It's so easy to articulate exactly how we were feeling last week or last year. We can tell someone why we were upset, but we can't often tell them why we are upset.
(Maybe I'm the only one with that problem. I'm sure you can perfectly articulate yourself every time you want to express a deep spiritual truth that is taking place in your life at this moment…)
I've heard people say they are going through something that is teaching them patience. Only when it's over they talk about how much humility they learned. They had no idea that humility was being worked into them.
It's not often that we are willing to admit that we have no clue what is happening in our spirit. Sure we will admit it to Him, it's not as if we can hide it from Him anyway. To tell our friends - our like-minded cohorts - that we don't know (or even that we doubt) might be inviting attack from the side that ought to help. We might be accused of a lack of fervency in our prayers or we might be told that we are not reading enough.
I’ve learned not to be afraid of not understanding. I need to understand everything. That has been what held me back more than anything. I thought I knew what was going on and s a result of my assumption I held back what He was able to do in me. Right now I have no idea what He's doing, but I know it's something. That's all I need to know. Not understanding His something is far better than my assumption.
Ask me next year what He did this year.
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